New Blogitty Blog Blog

I had another blog but I started a new one. Hopefully I will be better about posting on this one. lol Last night I went to bed with a 102 fever out of no where. I feel way better this morning. I wanted them to put me down last night lol. I felt awful. The kids are doing great. Hunter has finally gotten a tooth. Its broke through the skin this weekend. I am already planning his 1st birthday bash. We are doing here since we will have new hardwood and paint and some new furniture. Its gonna be a football partay! Caroline is about to start school. I am already starting to dread this is her last year of preschool before kinder garden. We have had such a fun summer I hate for it to end. I guess I started a new blog bc I am entering a new, well not new just revisiting a different chapter in my life. After my friend Jenna passed away last summer I got to a point where I wasn't sure if God existed and I had so many questions. I had lost a lot of faith. I couldn't understand how God could take a 34 yr old woman who was pregnant from her 3 children and her husband. And sometimes I still don't understand. I try to believe that it really is for a purpose that is bigger than us. Last week, this beautiful amazing girl I know, Kate lost her father in a tragic accident. Kelli, the OTHER Kelli for my husband that might read this. It was a beautiful service at the BIG Methodist church. But more than that it was the most moving service I have ever been too. Watching this family and their love and commitment to each other and God was truly inspiring. I wanted to be like that family!They were so certain that their husband, father, son, brother, was with God. A man gave a speech there about how we see God and where we see God in our lives. When I left there I realized that I saw God in the Benson family. Yes it was a very sad accident but through that it brought many of closer to God. Its the most inspired I have been in years. We are looking for a new church for our family, as a family. We want a church with a lot of young people and children obviously. We have it narrowed down to 2. I realize I am so blessed. I have a nice house, my husband has a good job, I have 2 BEAUTIFUL wonderful children, I have good friends and family. But God hasn't really fit into it all until now. Not for a long time. And I realized that God is big enough to handle my questions. Big enough to handle my doubt. And big enough to accept me back into his arms. I am so excited for our new journey.
So on a diff rent note, I had a baby session with Peyton yesterday. He is adorable with his rock star hair! We are finishing the session hopefully today. I got some SWEET shots. I hope everyone has a wonderful day! I am going to kick it with the kiddos! :)